Every Day Is Exactly The Same

Wake up.
Force self to wake up.
Drone through morning rituals.
Have half an hour of happiness before 7:45
Motions.
Motions.
Motions.
Motions.
Motions.
Motions.
Motions.
Come home
Use Laptop
Use Laptop
Use Laptop
Hate self for doing nothing.
Swear to start doing something productive.
Get interested in ideas to do.
Realize I have no funds to start it up.
Lose will to do it.
Emptiness.
Lay in bed swearing to make a difference tomorrow.

Doze

Cue the mundane post. Oh god, the amount of free time I have is awful. Boredom is the worst thing in my life and it seems like I'm combating with it as soon as I walk in the door from school, and nothing is even remotely entertaining for a duration of time. Streaming movies, playing games, reading, general stupid things with laptop, Facebook, Twitter, NOTHING IS GOOD ANYMORE (I guess they would have had to be good in the first place..) I seriously feel like beating my skull in would be a better use of time rather than sitting here and taking in oxygen and fuckin' eating to stay alive.

Swivel

Slow day again, shocking I know. Not that I'm complaining, school's a fantastic time killer and everything but it's moments like this where I can sit back and enjoy myself. I got my swivel chair, a decent book, and M83 on in the background. Phone's been quiet too, no texts, no nothing for the past few hours. I'm in my own dimly lit world essentially, and aside from a few people, I'd be perfectly content to stay like this for the rest of my life. Reading, relaxing, and drinking from this mug I found in the back of the cupboard.

Thump

This headache is giving the neat ability to feel my heart beat without really trying. Didn't even think it was still there. Just been going through the motions lately; I really do need to get that hobby to pull my mind off of everything and out of the norm. Slow day so far, two hour delay and feeling sick as all of hell. Stuffy nose, thumping headache, dry throat, the whole shebang. Whatever, I'm stronger than this crap. On with the week.

In other news, Skyrim's Dlc Hearthfire came out today and the verdict is NIOFHJHERHOHGERHGLGJGHRULGHRRVI MG HG RIRG RIGGHRJKFHEJKLF;EF SO GOOD

Sigh

I'm feeling some mental fatigue. Not too good at this point either, got school work looming over me, a German girl who looks to me for all types of advice; not that I don't mind it, I like to help people a lot, I just didn't quite expect this. Still being a guardian angel as well. I'm losing ground there, but I won't let this go without exhausting all my options. It's worth it. Boredom is really been sinking in lately too, while school work is annoying it doesn't occupy my time fully. I need to find a new hobby or something. Maybe painting or something, get these creative urges out of the system. Abstract art, something to let me put some paint onto paper. Yeah, I like that idea; now all I need to do is scrounge up some money. I do, however know this will end as it always does, I'll never have the money to go grab the materials I need. Oh well, there's always something else to do.